What a glorious day today, the sun is rising, the birds are chirping and the horses are playing up in our field, even though it is only 23 outside, you would think it was Spring. Oh wait...it is Spring, the last two mornings I fed our animals in a blizzard with over 4 inches of snow on the ground, but it is spring and today is a great reminder of new life.
Today gives me much renewed energy to move forward from the last two weeks of "trial"....I say trial because I feel like we as a family have truly been tested. These are times when you either turn farther from God or draw closer to His love. As a family it either makes you love each other more or become frustrated and out of patience. I would have to say I was the later, I lost my patience and was easily frustrated with the circumstances that were brought before us. Three very sick kids, one very sick husband, an injured horse, broken down truck and a best friend who is is dealing with more in her life than I think anyone should ever have to experience. After 5 visits to the doctor and hospital, 3 x-rays, 4 people and one horse on antibiotics, one vet. visit to our farm, and two visits to the car dealership.... we have been emotionally, financially, physically, and spirtually tested over a very long two week period. Frankly my attitude towards adversity has not been noble or admirable in my eyes, I feel like I failed in honoring our Father. Which has forced me to move forward and find new hope and energy in life. To appreciate times of adversity that draw us closer to our loving Savior.
My hope lies in the cross, where our sweet Savior layed his life down for our ugly sins and gave us the opportunity to be clean and free from our failures. Even for a single moment to realize that we are free from our sin allows our heart to be renewed. This renewal I pray would stay with us until the next time we are tested in hopes that we will turn to Christ for strength instead of relying on our wordly ways and sin nature. I'm reminded that worry is sin....why do we worry so??? Why do I worry about the things that we can't control, why do I take the control away from my Father? Sin Nature! Ugly sin that makes His heart ache. I fall and He picks me up, He forgives and makes me clean, I disappoint him and He unconditionally loves. WOW! Our Mighty, Wonderful, Savior! What a joy it is to know Him, to have a relationship far greater than any relationship we have on this earth. To know the one who created our families for us, and so sweetly gave us the opportunity to be part of His creation. All thanks be to HIM!
My perspective has changed thanks to loving friends that God has placed in my life. I thank God for providing accountability for me in these difficult times. I'm sad to see my attitude fail, but so encouraged by those around me who are there to lift me up again, thank you friends. Specifically my friends who lovingly stood by me and prayed for my family and so sweetly and gently reminded me of Christ's love. Thank you for being great examples and providing encouragement when I had lost my perspective. God is so good.
So today is a new day, we are new every morning, Great is His faithfulness! I pray everyone has a wonderful day and thank you friends for you love and encouragment.
