Homeschooling?

The Lord truly led us into homeschooling. Lauryn was struggling with anxiety issues at school this fall....she was a really scared and sad little girl. After praying for an answer for a long time, our hearts were ready to homeschool. At first I was a little overwhelmed with trying to establish a schedule, but in time I really began to relax and allow God to lead us. Lauryn absolutely loves being with her sisters and family. I really believe that her heart was broken when she was away from us for so long, and frankly my heart was also broken hearing the sadness and fear that was in her little heart. To see her heart free from fear is truly a God given gift which began a long time ago on an old wooden cross where the Lamb gave His life to save us all. Everyday I have to remind myself that fear and worry were washed away, along with our mistakes, failures and sins. When life seems to consume me and the enemy comes into attack, my prayer is to be reminded of what our Saviour did for us on that day so long ago. Whether it be by picking up the bible and seeking encouragement or conviction...or by talking with my Father in heaven or by worshiping in song.... I have been trying to seek Him throughout my day. I want my girls to see me as a child of God who seeks to know our Father more. What homeschooling has allowed us to do is turn our focus on learning more about Him instead of what the world wants our children to learn. God is being removed from everything around us, our nation, our schools, our government. It became evident that the light that I had prayed my girls would be in school was being dimmed by the enemy. I truly believe that there are so many wonderful schools and teachers that do a wonderful job with our kids...believe me, my mom was a teacher, I was a teacher and a lot of my best friends are teachers now and they all do a wonderful job, but what God continues to reveal to me is that He gave my children to me as gifts and that is what they are to me...gifts that I need to treasure, love, nurture, teach and guide in the direction of Christ. As much as I enjoyed being involved with school activities...that enjoyment does not even compare to watching my children learn with my own eyes all day long. Seeing them seek God on their own and watching them grow closer in their relationship with Him and watching their special relationship as sisters develop into great friendships. I also have the opportunity when days are hard and challenging to guide them in the right direction. I fail miserably....daily....and only by the grace of God can I be lifted up again over and over again. Homeschooling is, and was a difficult decision that I will continue to lay at the Lords feet every single day. I never want to be in control of it, I want it to be truly all about our Father and allow Him to be the one who guides and teaches my girls. This is so longwinded but to have the ability to write down why I am doing what I am doing is such a blessing. My prayer now is that I will not stumble anyone by what I have written...I only ask that you will pray for us. If you are reading this I thank you for listening. I better get going, we start school at 9.